Susie's Blog

This chilli crab place is in paramatta....thats about one hour drive from us. I haven't had them for a long time. This time we booked about a week earlu and travel all the way for it. Worth the trip indeed.

Sometimes you notice that  if you go out and eat with family or friends you don't really need to talk. It becomes so comfortable that each of us just does out own thing. So called comfortable eating. No need to talk or entertain. Rather good....
 

I ordered the whole box of taiwanese food including two packs of dumplings(50 each). then taro cake, pancake, meat ball....etc. All of these cost me $90 ($2250 taiwanese dollars) ....i think it's rather expensive considering these will cost about 225 in Taiwan. But we love to eat those......haven't had them for a long long time....

Someone i knew passed away this morning from lung cancer. Only 8 weeks ago he found out that he has lung cancer and today he is gone. I live my life everyday as if i drop dead suddenly i will have no regret. Whatever I want to do and want to eat I will go and do it. I will also go out during weeknights without worrying that tomorrow I have to start working at 7 am. I tried not to worry that I am single and everyone else is not and feel very loaded with money even though it might not be the case in rich people's eyes. But what if i live till old age? Then I should have a family, have a house and have a big business that other people generate my income. And that's very sad indeed if comes to think about it. I can't find a guy i like or we both mutually like and i can't see any houses I want to buy, and I love the working style I have. But this is not going anywhere isn't it if I happen to live a long life? I feel sad that he passed away and I suddenly feel very sorry for myself.

My computer is so slow....i can't upload anything anymore...RThis time when I go back in July, it's necessary to get a new one for sure....
Talk about going back to Taiwan, I really don't want to go. The thought of going back depressed me as the day comes closer. I want to go to somewhere far far away.....like Sweden, Finland South of Spain or Argentina....far far away. Away from everything.

I have been practicing yoga for a long time. In Taiwan a lot of people think yoga can help you to lose weight and treat it as an exercise. I think Yoga is indeed an exercise but it's more for the mind rather than for the body. You don't lose weight on doing yoga, you just get toner and stronger body, more flexible and calmer spiritually. I had great trouble doing yoga before because my mind was always so busy and yoga just felt so boring. Every yoga pose has a purpose for your inner organs and the breathing helped the mind. These days I go to gym and do two classes a week with everyone and on top of that everymorning I get up at 5:30 am and do 10 mins or yoga before going bed to sleep for another 30 mins. Today I finally realised how good it could be. I couldn't remember when was the last time I got sick. My body is always warm that I never need to wear much clothes. I sleep very well everyday and I will consider myself quite a happy person and able to control my emotion if I choose to. Maybe yoga is worth the try if you haven't tried it.

I feel very lucky to have a lifetime dentist for free (monica), eye specialist for free (dad), nurse for free (mum) and andy (i can't spell the anathesthe.....what the...Anyway those doctors that get paid with big money for pushing some mahcine and adding some drugs and putting patients to sleep. That kind. Also you really don't need his service unless you are dying with major trauma or surgery)....Anyway after my dental work today I am taking her for lunch (cheap ba...thats all i need to do for the rest of my life dental work payment yeah). So this is the organic cafe we went. Yum.

Can you believe how much was this master teacher charged me? He was the master teacher from speech level singing method. The one that all the hollywood stars learn from. These guys came from USA and Canada regularly and lots of contemporary singers, entertainers or singing teachers do private lesson with them when they come. I am also part of the team for their teacher training so I book 3 half hour lessons with him as well. Each 30 mins lesson costs me $ 120 US dollars. In other words, 1.5 hours lesson costs me around 700 Australian dollars. Plus the teacher workshop that weekend of singing lessons and workshop costs me $950. Very very expensive..... But I am open to all methods and love to learn more. my god. He was really really good. Now i really understand how to sing from chest voice to head voice smoothly in contemporary singing. I have since taught quite a few classical singers to sing in modern pop style. Next time I must show you the video clips of my voice singing classical and contemporary. it does sounds quite different. I have been listeing to all the recordings of lessons. The more I listened to it, the more I was amused by his teaching. Very very fascinating.

I think we are where we are supposed to be at this stage of our life no matter what the circumstances is. One thing I learn with age is not too chase what other people have all the time. Instead stop a sec and be very grateful of what you have. I used to get very jealous of what people have, whether its money, status and relationships and just think i never have enough. Now I think it's quite stupid. I have enough money to live in abundance. It's just in my state of mind. My status is high enough in my world. Everyday people pay me well enough to boss them around. I might not have one relationship that people think I should have, I would like to think myself a relative popular person in life. And most important of all, I leave all the people who ever try to make me feel like shit. I used to take shit and now I give the shit back to them. Maybe aging is not a bad thing, you learn to live life in a wiser way.

Surprisingly this chinese restaurant at old fashion north league clue was in such good value. Cheap too considering we were having beking duck ( we paid around 22 dollars each person). Our usual family dinner on sunday night when Yi ching and Andy were not working. Good dinner. We like it.